Kevin Part 4

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KEVIN

PART 4

I couldn't believe how fast my week had gone. I loved being with Kevin. The more time I spent with him the more I began to realize...I really am in love. After the weekend we spent together, the next week just seemed to actually fly by. The only thing I really remember was the time I spent with Kevin. I had seen him during our class together and he had seemed a little off. I just chalked it up to "teenageitis", but little did I know.

"Hey Babe! How are things going today?" I asked him as I saw him round the corner. I, of course, had made sure that the hallway was clear before calling him babe in public.

"Oh...I am ok, I guess." He answered with a somewhat grim look on his face. He almost looked as if he was about to start crying.

"Oh no. What's wrong Kevin?"

"Nothing...I am just having...a....really bad....day" He said between sobs.

I grabbed him by the hand and said, "That's it. I am taking you to my house."

As we walked out to my car, he continued to sob almost silently next to me. My heart was breaking, but I knew for both our sakes I needed to get somewhere private before I could start to console him. Finally I got him into the truck and he slumped down while I buckled him in. I crossed around to my door, hopped in and started her up. Once we were safely out of sight of the school, I pulled over. Making sure no one was around I leaned over and kissed his face.

"I am so sorry I wasn't there for you Kevie. You have got to tell me what's wrong"

"...OK...But let's go to your house first" He said between sobs.

Looking at his tear stained face almost broke me in two. I had no idea what could have happened between the time I left him in weight training, until the time I had seen him just two hours later. But I was damn sure gonna find out. I felt as if I had failed him. Here he is, the most important thing in my life, and I couldn't even protect him from the every day evils of high school. Some kind of boyfriend I turned out to be.

Finally we got to my house. I got out and opened his door, unbuckled him, and carried him into my house. I set him down on the couch, and then laid down next to him on the floor.

"OK sweetie, tell me what happened." I said.

"Well," He started. He almost seemed to have gotten over that bit of crying, and was under control again. The he told me his story. I couldn't believe how bad a day this kid had managed to have in just a few short hours. Actually though, the problems started right after he had left me on Sunday evening.

Kevin was so happy with the new relationship he had, he was almost bursting. We'll, like any teenage boy, he just had to tell someone. Since his parents didn't know he was gay yet, he decided to tell his best friend Jessica.

"He Jess...I have something I need to tell you. This isn't really easy for me, but I know how much you care for me so, I don't think you'll mind to much." He started.

"Sure Kev. You know I'll always be here for you. I love you like my own brother." Jessica responded, smiling here assurances at Kevin.

"Well first off, I think you should know that I am gay." Kevin said, and then waited for a reaction. None came right away though. Poor Kev, he should have known right then and there that something was wrong.

"Aren't you gonna say anything?" Kevin asked, still hoping for the best.

"Well, Kevin, I don't really know what to say. I am shocked, obviously. I never imagined that you might be gay. Why didn't you tell me before." She asked.

"I was getting to that. The other reason I needed to tell you this today, is because I have found someone and I am in love with him." He looked at her, seeking approval.

"Oh...I really don't know what to say. I am happy for you...I guess", she said to him.

"Thanks for you overwhelming approval Jessica. I am so glad I have a friend I can count on", He said sarcastically.

"Jesus Kevin. I am in total shock here. I always thought, I always knew you were straight. this came entirely out of the blue. Not only do you tell me your gay, but you tell me you have a boyfriend. How the hell else do you expect me to act?"

"I don't know. I thought maybe you might be happy for me." Kevin looked at the ground. Tears had started to well up in his eyes. He couldn't believe this. His best friend was not accepting him. "It's not my fault Jessica. It's not like I asked to be gay."

"I know that Kevin., but still, I need a little time to digest this. I think you should leave."

"...ok" Kevin replied weakly. The water works were really starting to run by that time.

"Kevin...I still love you, but I am having a hard time with this. I am asking you to leave so that we don't say anything stupid we both might regret. I will talk to you tomorrow."

Kevin turned and left her room. He walked outside, slowly being pelted by the rain. It was cold, and hot steam rose from the trail of tears slowly leaking down his face. Kevin couldn't believe what Jessica had just done to him. He had been so happy and she just shot a hole through his heart. He finally made it home and up to his room without his mom seeing his tear streaked face.

As he told me this, the tears started anew, and I climbed up on the couch next to him. I pulled him into my arms, like a mother cradling her newborn.

"Kevin, she'll get over it. You know how much she loves you." I softly whispered in his ear as I gently stroked his hair.

"You...you don't understand yet. I am not finished with the story yet", He struggled to say between sobs.

After Kevin had left her house, Jessica had immediately picked up the phone and called his best friend Matt. "Guess who's a faggot?" she asked. "Who?" Matt answered. "Kevin" she told him, and then regaled him with what had just happened at her house...or so Kevin had learned from Matt an hour earlier.

The next day while in PE class, I have to admit, I hadn't even noticed how Matt had been acting around Kevin, but in retrospect, he did seem a bit weirded out today. After class Matt had asked Kevin to stay in the locker room with him so that they could talk in private.

"There's only one thing you should know Kev. I am ok with the fact that you are gay. I really don't mind it, but there are a lot of people who will. I don't know what you can do because you told "The Mouth". Half the damn school probably knows already. I hear you have a boyfriend though...that is cool. I am really happy for you Kevie, I wish you had told me first though. I am one of your best friends...aren't I?"

By the time Matthew had finished, it looked as if Kevin was about to start bawling in front of him. Matt put a comforting hand on Kevin's shoulder. Kevin really started to cry by that time.

"Fuck it", Matt said and reached and grabbed Kevin in a big hug. "Kevin, I love you more that my own brother and I always will. Don't worry bro...you'll be ok."

"I cannot take this anymore. I thought that bitch was my best friend and look what she goes and does. I gave here a piece of my soul, and she kicked it and then spit on it. I can't believe this is happening to me." Kevin said between the tears.

"It's ok Kev. Trust me...I will always be here for you. I am gonna be your friend no matter what. I do wanna meet this boyfriend of yours though, whenever you two are ready though." Matt said as he continued to comfort Kevin.

"Thanks Matt...you can't even know how much I appreciate that. And you already know my boyfriend, but I let him introduce himself to you..ok?" he asked.

"Yeah no problemo. Let's get out of here before someone starts to wonder."

They left the locker room and walked to the quad where everyone was at break. Everyone kind of looked at Kevin, and he was noticing it. It made him really uncomfortable, but no one had said anything so far, so he wasn't too upset.

After break he left for his next class. "Hey there faggot...wanna suck my dick?" Someone said as they walked past. He didn't even know who it was. "What's up cocksucker?" Someone else said. Apparently they hadn't said anything while he was with his friends because of the safety in numbers thing. But now as he left the safety of the group, it seemed as if everyone had some snide comment to make. Standing in the middle of the hallway staring at him with eyes that sad "drop dead" was Jessica.

"How could you? I trusted you" Kevin said. It seemed to him as if his whole world had been perfect and then a minute later it was turned upside down.

"Fuck you, you little faggot. I don't owe you an explanation for anything. I hope someone kills you, you son of a bitch." She screamed at him at the top of her lungs.

At that point Kevin ran for his locker. The tears were running freely at that point. And that's when I came into the picture.

During the time it had taken him to tell me his story I climbed up on the couch next to him and wrapped him in my arms to comfort him. He was shaking so bad, I was afraid he was going to pass out. I was silent for the longest time.

"Austin?"

"I am sorry Kevie...I was trying to come up with something meaningful to say. I know that 'I am sorry' isn't going to make things any better. If anything...I guess you know who your real friends are and who they aren't." I told him.

I held him close to me, savoring his warmth, and at the same time, feeling the anguish that he held inside him. "It's ok Kevin, you are safe with me...let it out babe, just let it out." He put his face to my chest and cried. All I could do was hold him and make him feel safe. We laid there until eventually Kevin feel asleep. My poor little baby. I felt responsible for all this. I knew that I would have a word with Jessica, and I also wanted to meet Matthew and thank him for what he had done. But right now Kevin was the most important thing in my world. As I sat there laying with him, I realized that I needed him. I had finally found what I have spent all my life looking for. Someone to need me.

I remember what my mom had said when I came out to her. She had told me that my being gay was probably the fault of my father. My mom had just recently divorced him, but he was a military man. That meant that a lot of his time was spent away from the house and the family. That was ok for the most, but I remember what always happened when he came home. Since he had been gone for so long he felt that he had to make up for lost time, and he always did it with me. When a person lives their life, they develop a routine. I was like everyone else. I had my routine. But when my dad came back he shook things up.

I never felt any love from my father growing up, and my mom was so busy trying to run the household that I never really got noticed. Things had only gotten worse as I got older. Eventually the strain between my father and myself had gotten so bad that my mom got rid of him for me. I gained back a lot of the love I had lost from my mom due to my father. That was a big reason for me coming out to her. But truth be told, she may have been right about the reason for my "gayness".

In any event, as I held Kevin close to me, I knew that I would die for this boy. Or I would hurt someone if I had to...

Hope you enjoyed part 4. The next chapter is underway. I started it almost as soon as I finshed this chapter. Hey, guess what…I am a NIFTY writer now. I am so stoked. Email me with Questions or Comments. Seezya!

KEVIN

PART 4

By Austin